Sunday, September 24, 2017

Fishing or Monopoly?

Hiking to our fishing hole...

Each of us stood on the rocks like this to fish.

James casting...

The ocean.
Dear Friends and Family,

Fishing or Monopoly? This was the question to be decided the afternoon.... Given the hard work the young men have put into serving at the altar at Lanherne I wanted to join them for an afternoon game. They said their favorite game was Monopoly. However they also had a real love for fishing and wanted to take me fishing. So we decided... that it would depend on the weather. Though the day began raining, it cleared up enough for us to go fishing. I think it was the first time in 30 years that I had fished, and had only probably fished twice in my life before that.

Wesley was kind enough to show me how to put the rod together and cast. So I spent a while casting from the rocks into the ocean, and twice had pretty good bites on my line! The pole bent rather forcefully as I tried to reel the fish in... but then lost him. None the less it was quite nice to watch the guys fish (they did catch several), and to simply look at the ocean.

Earlier this week I headed to London for a bit more than 24 hours for a clergy conference. I had the blessing at staying at the Brompton Oratory, a small oasis in the midst of London. A quiet, beautiful, and peaceful place for prayer.


Brompton Oratory at 6AM, when all is quiet and I was able to spend an hour in prayer.

Looking back from the altar.
The clergy conference was, unfortunately, on the topic of the "gender education" being pushed in England's schools. But it was a good conference, and a good opportunity to meet other priests. The rest of the afternoon and evening, and the next morning, was largely spent offering spiritual directions and then the next afternoon I flew back to Newquay.

By now, many of you will probably have seen that I signed the correctio fialis. I think the document speaks for itself, and is very much in line with what St. Thomas indicates for such a situation, so I won't comment on it further here, other than to say I am very much at peace about signing.

This coming Wednesday I'll have the wonderful blessing of hearing the first Confessions of two children I have been preparing. If you have a chance, please say a prayer for Matthew and Trinity!

May Jesus and Mary watch over you.

In Cordibus Iesu et Mariae,
Fr. Pillari


Saturday, September 16, 2017

23 Years ago on this September 17th...

One of thousands of apples ripening in our orchard.

Various views of the orchard.


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Dear Friends and Family,

We are abundantly blessed with apples. Around 5,000 of them. Maybe more. If anyone reading this would like to pick some, please let me know! Fr. George Roth, FI did a splendid job developing the orchard in the decade prior to my arrival. Not only that, he and the brothers here developed an annual ritual of making cider--a lot of cider--from the apples. So these past two years I have been faced with a challenge: I'm afraid that making cider is not my forte, and as one priest, as opposed to the previous two priests and a brother living here, it would not be feasible to take the time to do so, even if my skills were up for the challenge. Last year a variety of people were the beneficiaries of the apples, including 79 year-old Fr. George, who will be coming by next week to once again pick apples. Other beneficiaries included local folks who make cider. We have an abundant crop this year. I think they will be put to good use. But there will likely still be many good apples to spare. So if you are in the area and have a good use for some apples, please let us know.

Tomorrow, September 17th, always brings back an important memory for me: the memory of kneeling in one of the chapels at the University of Notre Dame, where I was a student, and making my consecration to Jesus through Mary for the very first time. Why Sept. 17th? Because I was too impatient to wait for a later Marian feast day.

That summer I had been attending weekly young-adult prayer meetings at a friend's home in Bay Village. At some point either I asked about, or someone proposed, a good book that would help me get to know the Virgin Mary better. I had been reading a few books that summer, trying to get to know Her better. Michele said, "True Devotion to Mary by St. Louis de Montfort. You have to read it!" To be honest, my first reaction one was "If the author has this long funny-sounding French name the book probably won't be too appealing." However, I accepted the book and took a look through it and some of the endorsements. It didn't take me long to decide I should read it, and then didn't take me long to decide I needed to do the 33-day preparation recommended by St. Louis (whose book was quite engaging, regardless of his long name!). It was recommended that you start the 33 days so that you end on a feast day. I was two days late to start for the Feast of Our Lady's Sorrowful Heart (Sept. 15th), but I didn't want to put it off and figured it would still be valid, so I went ahead.

I still remember doing the nightly prayers and readings in preparation. One week during August my family went on vacation to Hilton Head. I remember pulling away to the porch, where it was quieter, at night, to do my nightly prayers from St. Louis. And then finally the day came.

To be honest I can't remember at all the details of, or anything memorable about, the consecration itself. What I do know is that just a few weeks later I would discover my vocation to be a priest, through Our Lady's presence and intercession. That book is such an amazing treasure, especially the simple formulation that is at the heart of it:

"Try to do everything by Mary, with Mary, in Mary, and for Mary." St. Louis promised that this was the shortest, safest, and easiest way to arrive at a close union with Jesus. The words are very true! Even though I do an atrocious job of living this out, She has helped me more than I could ever say.

May She watch over each of you--and over me!--tomorrow and each day.

In Cordibus Iesu et Mariae,
Fr. Pillari

Sunday, September 10, 2017

"Playing before Him all the while..."

Votive candles burning before the Blessed Sacrament altar this evening.

Dear Friends and Family,

This evening we're in the midst of an octave of Masses in honor of the nativity of the Virgin Mary--a beautiful Carmelite tradition. It is beautiful to think of our Lady as a little baby, and then as a little girl.

The Mass for the Feast of Her birth has these words in the first reading: "...I was His delight day by day, playing before Him all the while, playing on the surface of His earth..." There is something truly playful about the birth and life of the Virgin Mary. Of course Her life would also have the most intense suffering that any woman has even known. But at the heart of Her life is something wonderfully "playful": the "playful game" of the exchange of love between the Immaculate Virgin and God Himself. Surely so many moments in Mary's childhood, and then later at Nazareth with Jesus, were full of simple exchanges of love--full of the spontaneity and creativity of those who are deeply in love.

In the spiritual life, growth consists in becoming more and more like a child. So, in one sense, growth in our spiritual life is the opposite of our physical growth. In our spiritual life--that is to say in our Christian life (which is all of our life!)--we are called to grow in virtue, responsibility, sacrifice, etc. And yet at the heart of all of that we are called to become ever smaller, ever more like little children.

There are wonderful graces available in contemplating the tiny Virgin Mary, held in St. Anne's arms, sleeping Her first sleep, then crawling, walking, saying Her first words, playing, praying, so many beautiful moments that God wants to use to draw us to follow in Her footsteps, to become more and more like little children.

May Jesus grant us that grace in this octave in honor of His Mother.

In Cordibus Iesu et Mariae,
Fr. Pillari

Saturday, September 2, 2017

Chanting the Divine Office

Photo taken as I chanted Lauds in the monastery garden.

I lowered the book so you'd have an "unfunny" view of the background.

The path I walk back and forth, in nice weather, to chant the office.
Dear Family and Friends,

Among the many blessings of this past week--one of which was beautiful weather!--I wanted to share with you two in particular.

One is this week's First Friday Mass. Every month I offer the Holy Sacrifice on the first Friday for all of my benefactors--this includes all of you who are donating financially to make my life, apostolate, and studies, possible, as well as all of you who are making my priestly life and apostolate, and studies possible, and hopefully fruitful! by your prayers and sacrifices. Thank you for all that you are doing for me as a priest. As promised, I offer each First Friday's Mass as a way of saying thank you. But for me it is also a particular joy. So many of you are those I have known for years as a priest, and I have so very much to be thankful for in terms of your faith and love for the Lord, your sense of humor, your courage, and so many other blessings. So on the First Friday it is a real joy to think of you and your families, to bring you in Our Lady's Heart to the foot of Calvary, to ask Jesus to pour out His blessings upon you, and to remember you with gratitude.

Another blessing of this week was to begin once again to chant the Divine Office in the monastic form. The past 18 months were quite intense, and so I had largely backed off from this, not feeling I had the energy. However, the past 10 days I began to chant again Lauds, Terce, Sext, None, and Vespers. It has been really wonderful to dive into those melodies again! I remember reading that at the monastery of Gethsemane, when the monks abandoned the Gregorian chant in the 60's (or 70's) to chant instead in English, their health declined noticeably. I believe it. There is a genius in the different melodies--in fact in the different "modes"--of the psalms. More than genius, there is something particularly holy and inspired. They bring out something wonderful in the human heart and lift it up to God. In some ways I find that the melodies help the heart to speak to God even more than the words of the psalms.

My chanting is rather rusty and it will take me a while to relearn each of the modes, as well as the antiphons (some of which I never learned in the first place), but it is a joyful work. The monastic office definitely takes longer than the diocesan one, but in the end I think the benefits will be well worth it. So, you see in the above photos the little area I like to chant in when the weather is nice.

Nice weather is not always here, so much of the time I will be chanting in the small chapel in the presbytery that the sisters are kindly preparing. Hopefully it will be completed in a few weeks and I can send you a photo.

Oh, and this is the cover story of the UK's major Catholic weekly magazine. I have to agree! http://www.catholicherald.co.uk/issues/september-1st-2017/the-kids-are-old-rite/

I wish you all a very blessed Sunday. May Jesus and Mary watch over you and guide you.

In Cordibus Iesu et Mariae,
Fr. Pillari





Saturday, August 26, 2017

Long-Term Projects here in the Diocese

View of neighboring bell-tower from this past Tuesday evening, as I sat on a bench in Lanherne's garden.

View of sky same evening.

View of our newly trimmed hedge, thanks to some generous volunteers!
Dear Friends and Family,

This past week had a number of blessings--among them Sacramental preparation: resuming the weekly Wednesday evening Catechism course to two 6 year-olds preparing for first Confession and First Holy Communion, and a Tuesday evening meeting with a young couple expecting the birth of their first child. The first two photos above were taken while sitting on a bench waiting for them. Very much looking forward to the Baptism of another little baby!

This week I wanted to complete the last light of the key-responsibility chart, for my work as a missionary here in England, that I started showing you a few weeks ago.


Lanherne Project: Vision Lead

This assignment is proof that God has a sense of humor. After more than 10 years of meetings involving planning or construction at the Mission, I had told God I would prefer to avoid that in the future. And then He sent me... to a monastery that is just beginning a major renovation project! Lanherne is a "grade 1 listed building" in England--in other words, it has the highest possible designation by the English government as a building needing to be preserved. This sounds nice, except that it means that you have to be extremely careful, and get approval from committees, for any work you do. Thankfully, we have a great project director with expertise in historic buildings, as well as an excellent board that is overseeing the project.

Lanherne is considered a historical treasure because 1) it was the Arundell family home, a very important Catholic family who remained Catholic, and suffered greatly for it, all during the post-Reformation persecution. It is said the the tabernacle lamp (in the family chapel) has always been kept burning since before the Reformation, 2) Saint Cuthbert Mayne celebrated Mass here shortly before being martyred, and 3) It has been a cloister monastery the past 223 years.

Concretely, I have been charged with working with the board, the project director, architects, etc., as well as meet with potential donors, to try to implement what will likely be a $3.5 million project. I'm scheduled to give a presentation to the diocesan trustees in October.

Canonical Work for Diocese

I've been asked to assist with some multi-year projects. As with much legal work, this is not really for public consumption, so I'll leave it at that.

Studies: J.C.D./PhD and J.D.

Last year was the "year of exams"--both in canon law and civil law. Thanks in part to your prayers, I passed those! From here on out the work will be steady, but should be significantly less pressure. In canon law my dissertation will focus on an aspect of the papal magisterium. My goal, by the end of this semester, is to have the initial research complete and to present a 50 page summary of the proposed dissertation to the faculty, who then meet with me to review and critique the project. Once I pass that step, then it is just reading and writing for the next 2 years or so. I am looking forward to it. It will be a chance to dig into a particular area that is interesting to me, and has real-life practical applications what the Church is living today. For example, one aspect of my research this Fall will be to read all of the key writings of St. Robert Bellarmine on the topic of the papal office and magisterium, and to write a summary of his thought.

For the J.D. this year will be civil procedure, criminal procedure, and constitutional law (along with some other course I can't remember). All three should be interesting. My impression is that they really tried to weed us out in the first year. From here on out it will now doubt still have its challenges, but I should be able to settle into a regular rhythm of study. The topics should genuinely be interesting, particularly given the discussions in the U.S. now involving religious liberty, which touch directly on constitutional law, criminal procedure, and civil procedure.

Well, with that and the previous posts, you hopefully have an idea of the main 9 projects I've been charged with for this coming year and beyond. There are other aspects as well, such as assisting a pro-life group with their annual retreat, etc. But these 9 are the main areas that it seems God has asked me to focus on for life here as a missionary. So, I'll sign off now and try to make some progress on the bibliography for my dissertation, before heading out for a jog and then making a Holy Hour.

God has been very good to me.

May Jesus and Mary watch over you and guide you.

In Cordibus Iesu et Mariae,
Fr. Pillari

Sunday, August 20, 2017

Baptism

One of God's little gifts, just a week old :).

With her grandparents.

Some of the children who were at the Baptism (some from out of town).

Blessing a family about to move to Africa.

New baptized!


The proud godparents.

Dear Friends and Family,

I had the wonderful joy of baptizing a little baby this Thursday. I thought tonight I'd share with you my sermon notes (for those who have a hard time sleeping...), since the plan of Catechism sermons called for me to preach today, and last Sunday, on the Sacraments. Keep in mind these are just my notes. The actual sermon often varies a bit or develops what's there, and you will certainly find grammatical errors.

Before posting that, I also wanted to say thank you! to you all for your prayers for the intense studies for the civil law exam in California this June--the California "mini-bar" which I had to pass in order to continue for the duration of the J.D. I had to earn a 560 to pass. I am very pleased to report that, on the Feast of the Assumption, I received notice that I scored a 639, and so will be able to continue studies. Deo Gratias! This should be by far the most difficult exam during my studies, with the exception of the final California Bar, if I choose to take that. Thank you very much for your prayers.

Below are today's sermon notes.

May Jesus and Mary watch over you, and grant you special graces of protection and guidance.

In Cordibus Iesu et Mariae,
Fr. Pillari

1 Cor. 15:1-10
Brethren: I recall to your minds the Gospel that I preached to you, which also you received, wherein also you stand, through which also you are being saved, if you hold it fast, as I preached it to you - unless you have believed to no purpose. For I delivered to you first of all, what I also received, that Christ died for our sins according to the Scriptures, and that He was buried, and that He rose again the third day, according to the Scriptures, and that He appeared to Cephas, and after that to the Eleven. Then He was seen by more than five hundred brethren at one time, many of whom are with us still, but some have fallen asleep. After that He was seen by James, then by the Apostles. And last of all, as by one born out of due time, He was seen also by me. For I am the least of the Apostles, and am not worthy to be called an Apostle, because I persecuted the Church of God. But by the grace of God I am what I am, and His grace in me has not been fruitless.

Mark 7:31-37
At that time, Jesus departing from the district of Tyre came by way of Sidon to the sea of Galilee, through the midst of the district of Decapolis. And they brought to Him one deaf and dumb, and entreated Him to lay His hand upon him. And taking him aside from the crowd, He put His fingers into the man’s ears, and spitting, he touched his tongue and said to him, Ephpheta, that is, Be opened. And his ears were at once opened, and the bond of his tongue was loosed, and he began to speak correctly. And He charged them to tell no one. But the more He charged them, so much the more did they continue to publish it. And so much the more did they wonder, saying, He has done all things well. He has made both the deaf to hear and the dumb to speak.

            What incredible joy this deaf and dumb man must have felt, when, through the touch of Christ’s fingers, his ears heard for the very first time the voices of his family and friends, perhaps his own mother’s voice, the sounds of birds singing, of the wind blowing through the trees, or of a stream running. What incredible joy he must have felt to be able to speak for the very first time—to tell others what he was thinking and feeling, to be able to tell Christ his gratitude and love, to simply be able to talk with others. There will be a particular joy in Heaven in contemplating such moments in our Lord’s earthly life, the miraculous healings that He poured out on bodies and souls as He walked the earth.

            We could be tempted to envy those who were able to receive His touch while He walked the earth: “If only I too could receive the healing power of His divine, saving, touch!” But in fact, we can. Our Savior is so good that He comes to us in each and every Holy Mass in order to touch our bodies and souls with His divine, saving power. How do each of the 7 Sacraments facilitate this direct contact with God? How do they fit into God’s overall plan for your life? We will be looking at each of the Sacraments individually—at their institution by Christ, at the indications given in Scripture, at how God acts through that particular Sacrament, and so forth, in sermons spread out periodically during this next year. Today though, the Church wants to give a glimpse of how all 7 Sacraments work together to foster the divine life in your soul.

            Christ only offers the Sacraments to a small portion of His Church—the Church militant. Christ’s Church has three parts: 1) the Church triumphant—the members of the Church who’ve made it to Heaven and who are rejoicing in the life there, more wonderful than anything we can imagine, and who also intercede for us here on earth, 2) the Church suffering—those who have died in a state of grace, but who are being purified in the fires of purgatory, to be ready to enter Heaven, and 3) the Church militant—which is us, the Church on earth. The Sacraments are only for the Church militant.

            Why are we called the Church militant? Who are we fighting against? Don’t we have the option of just being at peace on this earth? Jesus tells us frankly, 34 “Do not think that I have come to bring peace to the earth; I have not come to bring peace, but a sword. 35 For I have come to set a man against his father, and a daughter against her mother, and a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law; 36 and a man’s foes will be those of his own household.[1] The Lord was very frank about the struggles, the battles, that we would face in this life. As he said, Brother will deliver up brother to death, and the father his child, and children will rise against parents and have them put to death; 22 and you will be hated by all for my name’s sake. But he who endures to the end will be saved.[2]  Why is that? Did He not come preaching forgiveness, mercy, humility? Did He not say “Blessed are the peacemakers?” He did indeed. And those who truly follow Him, to whatever degree we follow Him—because sadly we all fall short in many ways—discover that He brings into their lives a deep peace beyond anything this world has to offer. This deep peace is often in the midst of tears and suffering; but it is a real, and deep, peace and joy.

            Jesus Christ preached a challenging message of conversion—of turning away from all that was selfish and vile, of all that was sin, of even “losing our own life” in order to love God with all our heart, soul, mind, and strength. And this was painful and distasteful for many. As the Gospel of St. John tells us, “...the light has come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil. 20 For every one who does evil hates the light, and does not come to the light, lest his deeds should be exposed.”[3] And so they tortured and crucified Him…. And He promised that, if we followed Him, we would receive the same treatment.[4]

            But our struggle is not primarily with other men, but with spiritual beings. As St. Paul explains, “…we are not contending against flesh and blood, but against the principalities, against the powers, against the world rulers of this present darkness, against the spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places.”[5] As we saw earlier this year, every single one of us has two angels assigned to him: a good guardian angel and a demon designed to attack and tempt you. And there are many, many more angels and demons constantly fighting to lead souls to heaven or to drag them to hell. You are in the midst of this battle and will be all of your life. There is no way to leave the battlefield. You have no choice but to fight… or to be vanquished.

            If our struggle is primarily against evil spirits, it is not only against them. It is also against men. In explaining the parable of the field, where the farmer sowed good grain and an enemy sewed weeds, Jesus explains, “He who sows the good seed is the Son of man; 38 the field is the world, and the good seed means the sons of the kingdom; the weeds are the sons of the evil one, 39 and the enemy who sowed them is the devil.”[6] Sadly, there are men in the world who voluntarily choose to serve the devil. He also has his children and servants, who hate the children of God.

            But our struggle is primarily against the fallen angels. Therefore Christ gives us, in the 7 Sacraments, spiritual armor and weapons for this spiritual warfare. 1) Through Baptism a child is born into the Church militant, into a race of warriors. Through Baptism God pours gives the baby’s soul some share in His divine life, and comes to live in the soul. That life must then be nurtured. 2) In Confirmation, the comes of age, he takes arms, and goes forth a fully equipped soldier to do battle with the Evil One, equipped with the graces of the Holy Ghost. 3) In the Holy Mass, he is fed and nourished with the spiritual food of the Blessed Eucharist. 4) If he be wounded by sin, Penance (Confession) is at hand to restore him to health. 5) In his last contest, Extreme Unction completes the healing process of Penance, removes and vestiges of weakness, and gives him strength and courage to win a soldier’s reward, which, for him, is death in the state of grace and Heaven for eternity.[7]

            Then Christ gives two Sacraments to sustain the army as a whole in this battle. 6) Holy Orders—ordination to the diaconate, priesthood, and episcopacy—provides the Church with a succession of bishops and priests to teach, govern, and sanctify the faithful. 7) Marriage provides not only the Church with new little soldiers, but also gives the spouses special graces to teach and form their children, graces to make their homes little fortresses where special spiritual protection is provided for these young ones.[8]

            In this way, the 7 Sacraments are meant to equip each soldier in God’s army, in the Church militant, for the daily battle against Satan and his minions. Every night, the Church asks each priest, in obedience, to repeats St. Peter’s words from his first letter: Be sober, be watchful. Your adversary the devil is prowling around like a roaring lion, seeking some one to devour. 9 Resist him, strong in faith.[9] We can try to pretend that we’re not in the midst of a battle, that we are supposed to have an easy, peaceful life on this earth. But that will not protect us from the bullets flying all around us. Rather, we should accept that each of us was born to be a soldier, a soldier of the Prince of Peace, a soldier in the army of Him who said, “learn of Me, for I am meek and humble of heart.” Our hearts were made for that. Ultimately, not only will your heart not find the path to heaven anywhere else, your heart will never be satisfied anywhere else. Your heart was made to spend itself each day for the King of Kings, for the One who gave His life for you on the Cross, and to fight on behalf of so many defenseless souls in this world.




[1] (Mt 10:34–36).
[2] (Mt 10:21–22)..
[3] (Jn 3:19–20)..
[4] 24 “A disciple is not above his teacher, nor a servant above his master; …. If they have called the master of the house Be-elzebul, how much more will they malign those of his household.[4]
[5] (Eph 6:12)..
[6] (Mt 13:37–39)..
[7] Paragraph taken almost verbatim from Apologetics and Catholic Doctrine, Sheehan, M.
[8] ibid
[9] Catholic Biblical Association (Great Britain). (1994). The Holy Bible: Revised Standard Version, Catholic edition (1 Pe 5:8–9). New York: National Council of Churches of Christ in the USA.

Sunday, August 13, 2017

Cornwall with parents + an afternoon with Eritreans

Little Barnabas after Friday Mass.


Some of Lanherne Congregation + visitors.

With my parents :).

My good parents!

Hiking the coastal path in Cornwall.

Hiking the coastal path (now 6 miles into the hike..)

Dear Friends and Family,

This past week had the wonderful blessing of a visit from my parents. They were able to come by extending a golfing trip in Scotland, and spent three days seeing where I live and what I'm up to. it was very nice to introduce them to the congregation here, the convent I live at, and the charming little village I've been placed in. We even visited the Mayflower Museum and Mayflower steps in Plymouth! It seems that one of my ancestors, Francis Cooke, was on the Mayflower, so it was look more at what their journey was like. Not for the faint of heart! Makes me grateful for airplanes.

Today was also full of blessings. It began with a "Churching of Women" ceremony for a young mother who just gave birth to her 7th child, whom I'll have the blessing of baptizing this Thursday. Today was her first time setting foot back in church since giving birth, so we had the traditional ceremony, with it's special blessing of the mother, and ceremonial leading of her back into the Church, and chanting of the Magnificat. It was very nice to have the congregation praying for her. Two more babies are on the way in the next two months. So, God-willing, there should be two more such ceremonies, and two more Baptisms, soon!

Then this afternoon I went to the home of new parishioners who have been attending the Latin Mass in Plymouth since earlier this summer. A devout young couple from Eritrea. It was quite an interesting afternoon which featured Eritrean dishes--you get your hands messy because it's all finger food! Kids would love it--and a chance to see clips of the Eritrean Rite, which usually lasts about 3 hours for each Mass! So my Masses are quite short in comparison. It was beautiful to get to know them and their two little children.

May Jesus Mary watch over you and grant you special graces on the Feast of the Assumption.

In Cordibus Iesu et Mariae,
Fr. Pillari